I feel so bad today, and I don't know why... guilt, maybe??? When will I ever start thinking of my own happiness before others? Or maybe i think I put others first, but actually, I am too selfish and I fail to see the truth.. my bestfriend Gina told me more than a million times already that I should start loving myself more.... how do you do such a thing without hurting other people? Have you heard the "I'd rather have myself hurt than hurt others"? I think it's not really true, the truth is you want to escape feeling the pain, the rejection, that he would choose her instead of you, and you can't just take that! so before that happens, you go one step ahead.... break your own heart before someone does..... whew! I am not making any sense, I just have nothing to do 'coz it's past 5pm and I am still in the office waiting for 6pm to come....

I miss Penpen, Daniel, Samuel, Ompong, my mom!

I got an email from my long lost friend Andrew today... that should lighten me up a bit, me pakiki-tirahan ako sa Brunei... hehehe :-)